now life is real ups and downs. i kept saying that my life is boring with no ups and downs and now when there's all the ups and downs i can't stand it and i only want to cry. much of it are friends, family case i don't give a hell shit out of it I'm still a teenager, teenager shouldn't get involved in adults matter so that's what I'm doing sit aside. good. keep talking to this friend of mine, hallucination friend ( better keep it low to not create problems) of mine. a good ear to lend indeed and i trust that the person won't leak my confessions, my anger, frustration and sadness to anyone. *cross fingers* actually I'd rather keep it to myself even if it were to kill me but i guess not the thoughts are to heavy, even i can't stand it.
life bad, happy not. maybe its time i change myself, people change why can't i? maybe i can get rebellious and rude but some people are testing me. :)) I'll show you my fucker side sometime. just wait people, I'm at my limit now. :D maybe all this time i was being to patient and to kind to people that they think I'm a friend whom they can use and throw away but I'm still patient, no fear time for a new clan of friends. :))
almost forgotten! visit the ainsyairah's blog to view this irritatingly funny conversation with her, she was like one comment theater and i swear she irritated me like hell but i swear its lame and funny. :D that funny girl, haiya idk what to say man! haha! ily babe! HER BLOG! scroll down and you'll see this frigging long convo, thats her! :D