stress

LIFE. Yeap it is a 4 letter word. But it has a thousand meanings behind it. life has been a straight line for me because there was a big jagged line behind it. And nothing has change since then. Nothing. Burdens after burdens. Problems after problems. I thought i could get a grip of this but i guess im just trying to be me. I got feelings too and i break down every single time. Life is not what i've expected. I think i grew way to fast or time is just not permitting me to slow down. Oh wells, Im still 15 i still wanna play on the playground. Meet cinderella. Have vague dreams. But now, everything is so unreal to me. Life is full of surprises i guess. Though, im just too tired about all this crap. Im way too tired, too exhausted to be crying everyday. I hate putting up a fake smile because it wears me out. I cant put on a sad face everyday, coz why? i dont need sympathy. I need someone who understands me and be with me not to solve all my burdens but to go through it with me. I guess im just asking for too much. Nobody feels others better than theirself. All this shit and crap and nuisance im facing is JUST TOO MUCH. Oh wells what can i say. Its life. I could choose to be happy if i want too but where do i even start? Nowhere. Fvck it. Fvck this shit. Hate. HATE. Hate. This THIS This. Life. LIFE. Life.