Its been 6 days now. 6 days since grandma left the world, left me and the rest. I don really know what to feel right now, sincerely. Everything happened to fast, I wasnt prepared. days past, restless and tired. sometimes I wish I could follow her up there. I couldnt take the overwhelming feeling. 1 day without her, suddenly every part of the house reminded me of her. On the other hand, Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly and I managed to see her for the last time. Still, I cant stop tearing every time i think of her. Maybe I just miss her too much and still couldn't bear to let her go. Still, who am I to go against god's will, god loves her more than us. I know god has better plans for her in the other world. Dad kept reminding us to not cry when she's gone but I couldn't stop myself. Its not because I regret, because she really left me, left us. Even when I'm here typing, I'm still crying and its been 6 days. I'm not strong enough, After all I'm just a kid who miss her grandmother whom she took care of for 6 years. :'(
nek, until today, even though its only 6 days I am missing you soo much. you are really not here anymore and I've only come to realize and accept it. This year's raya will be without you, it will be different without YOU. After this, I have no one to complain to, to fight with, to laugh with and to cry with someone called NENEK RUMINAH. I miss you dearly Nek, I hope you will be better up there with HIM. :')
YA ALLAH, ENGKAU lapangkanlah tanah perkuburannya. ENGKAU berilah cahaya di dalam kuburnya dengan amal ibadahnya. ENGKAU kurangkanlah siksanya dengan doa doa dari anak dan cucunya dan amalannya di dunia. AMIN. *AL FATEHA*
SESUNGGUHNYA TIADA SIAPA ATAU APA YANG KEKAL DI DUNIA INI DAN SESUNGGUHNYA DUNIA INI HANYA PERMAINAN SEMATA MATA. SETIAP YANG HIDUP PASTI AKAN MATI. SEGALA YANG DATANG DARIPADA TANAH AKAN KEMBALI KEPADA TANAH SUATU HARI NANTI. TIADA SIAPA YANG DAPAT ELAK DARIPADA KEMATIAN. TIADA HARTA YANG DAPAT MENYELAMATKANMU SELAIN AMAL IBADAH DI DUNIA AKAN DIBAWA KE AKHIRAT.
